a painful farewell

this is a picture of my dog, Hachiko and Mulan.

i know. Hachiko and Mulan are plural, so it should be my dogs instead of my dog. that's because ONLY Hachiko is my dog. Mulan is the dog we rescued about a month ago. some heartless prick dumped her at the roadside in front of my apartment along with another sibling of hers that we named "Badut". after 2 weeks of feeding her and Badut, one morning, we find that Badut has gone missing. someone has probably decided to adopt her - which was great! and not wanting to leave Mulan alone at the balai raya where they used to live, we decided to take her home 2 weeks ago to foster til someone adopts her.

the day i dreaded the most finally arrived today.

Mulan found a new home at my cousin's place in Inobong. me? i was left to cry and sob like a mother who lost her baby...

we never intended to keep Mulan as our pet, for we are living in an apartment where pets are not allowed. having Chiko alone is already against the rule!

the thing is, i've already grown attached to Mulan. she'd come and sit by my side all the time. she'd sleep beside my bed every night, under the cooling air of the air-cond. gawd, just typing this makes me sad and want to scream again!

I HATE HAVING A KIND HEART TO ANIMALS, ESPECIALLY WHEN IT COMES TO DOGS!

I HATE BEING SAD WHEN A DOG LEAVES/DIED!

I DON'T WANT TO TO FEEL LIKE THIS AGAIN!

the last time i cried this much was when our pet, Lucky died. i was so devastated, i wished the earth would just open up and swallow me.

i wish that too right now.

i just wanna lie down and die...

How to save a life

Yesterday, we found a stray puppy at the back of a restaurant where we used to go for breakfast.

As you can see, there's a large wound on the back of the leg - which appears to be a slash wound from a sharp object. Like a machete. :(

And so we kept the puppy in a box, feed and nurse the wound (using iodine and some bandage). We also puffed some Agnesia powder all over the puppy, since the wound has started to smell from the infection.

Today, we took the puppy to Sabah Animal Medical Centre (SAMC) and was told by the vet that the nerve on the leg has been severely wounded. When the vet poked the wounded leg, the puppy doesn't seem to react to it - which only proved that the leg is 'dead'.

"The leg has to be amputated..", said the vet.

I instantly reacted (trying hard not to cry) by saying, "but how will the puppy live??"

"Okay bah. Saya pun ada 2 ekor kucing berkaki 3 di rumah. Kuat melompat-lompat lagi." (Translation: "It's ok. I have 2 cats at home who has only 3 legs. They're so active and love to jump around.")

To make story short, we paid for the medical bills despite not having much money left... but if it's to save a life, we don't mind the sacrifice...

The puppy's at the vet tonight. We'll go visit him tomorrow after his surgery. I pray that he'll be ok..