Dedicated to my son, Lucky..

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there, I do not sleep.

I am in a thousand winds that blow,
I am the softly falling snow.

I am the gentle showers of rain,
I am the fields of ripening grain.

I am in the morning hush,
I am in the graceful rush
Of beautiful birds in circling flight,
I am the star shine of the night.

I am in the flowers that bloom,
I am in a quiet room.

I am in the birds that sing,
I am in each lovely thing.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there. I did not die.

When strong mamas feel quite weak

Lucky is still unwell. His eyes started twitching yesterday.. and this morning, I noticed that his front limb began to tremble every now and then.

:-(

But I am not ready to give up yet. Just not now. I will continue to pray for his recovery. As God has said,

"And he told them [the parable of the persistent widow] to the effect that they ought always to pray and not lose heart.."
- Luke 18:1

So give up I will NOT. This mama is weak but she has to be strong for her fur-kids. That said, after a day of crying my heart out.. I received a beautiful surprise in the form of a parcel - came all the way from Australia - It's the pink scarf that I purchased last month!

Just look at that packing! Macam my style of packing oh kan? *hee* I guess great minds think alike! :P

And this is how the pink scarf looks like:

Pastel pink gauze-like scarf adorned with 3 little felt clouds. How cute is that??? :D And that's not all... wait for it..

Wait for it.

Err.. wait again.

OK.

:P

(Excuse me for the puffy eyes. I've been crying since morning bah..)

The lady seller has also sent me another yellow scarf with cute little felt clouds FREE OF CHARGE!!!! :D God is really good, kan? When I'm sad, He gives me a reason to smile.

So here I am. All smiles with 2 new cute scarves in my hand. I have to find an excuse to wear them. Maybe go for a movie tomorrow. Mama needs to laugh out loud...

Lucky, my youngest boy

This is Lucky. The stray puppy that Bunny rescued and we took in as a pet.

This is how he used to look like:

I blogged about him before: How to save a life

I love this pup to death...

My new notepad!

Made a personalized notepad for myself last night. Comes with my name and link at the bottom of the paper too - all 60 pages! :-)

I also made a personalized planner refill for my pink Organizer... but I can't show you yet coz it's not done. Still waiting for my 7-hole puncher from the States... :(

Do you like to personalize your stationery too?

Work hard, shop hard

I completed a blog design for Mell last week. She wanted something that looked bright with the combination of red, white and green.

This is what I did for her:

This is what she said when I sent her the template:

"Canteeeeeeeknyaaaaa!!"

:D

On another note, I am thinking of replacing the chair at my mini studio with a wicker chair. Something white, like this:

But the thing is, I'm not sure if any furniture shop in KK sells it individually. Because I only need one. I know a few furniture shops in Penampang sells wicker chair, but they come in set. With a coffee table....

Maybe pretty Ms. Fay knows where I can get one? :P

If you happen to live around KK or know where I can get just one wicker chair, please, please, please let me know. I'd love to get one for my mini studio! :D

Here comes the weekend

Just when I was bursting with ideas for my next commissioned assignment (I got a new project! Yay!), Bunny came and said, "Sayang, jom tengok Despicable Me?"

So I dropped my pencil, cleared my work table and er.. posted this on my blog.. before I head for the shower. :D

Work can wait. My dahling is taking me out for a movie. We're going out for a movie!!!! ❤❤❤

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.  We love because he first loved us.
-1 John 4:18-19

Honey, where's the honey?

I've had this cough for almost a week now(?). I don't recall when it started, but one thing for sure: it just WON'T go away!

I for one, am not a believer in using modern medicine ..unless it is deemed to. I prefer to let my antibody work and try to heal itself. (namah shivaya) But I guess my antibody is not in a condition as it used to. :-( .... But I remembered an old method that I read somewhere... Honey.

In fact, in a study, honey appeared to be as effective as a common cough suppressant ingredient, dextromethorphan, in typical over-the-counter doses. Since honey is low-cost and widely available, it might be worth a try. So a cuppa honey I did have.

I am not a person who drinks hot stuff, but for the sake of my cough... I forced myself to drink a cup of hot honey - and surprisingly, I LOVE IT!!! The picture above is actually my 3rd cup of hot honey. :D

Hope it'll work it's magic on me.

Now before I end this post (and probably go blog hopping before continuing with my sesi melipat kain.. eeeeek!) I'm gonna post a picture specially for the pretty Fay.

A view on one part of my mini studio which I call: The mood uplifter side. It's a side where I hang stuffs that gives me the happy mood. :D

One pic can la kan?? The other part of the studio is still in a mess - trust me, you wouldn't want to see it. Ha ha ha! Tunggu kena kemas then I take some pics ya? :P

Okay lah, going to fold the clothes now before I get too lazy again.

“And whatever you do, in word or deed, do everything in the name of
the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through Him.”
—Colossians 3:17

Ohai!

Once again, I am hit by the old sickness: penyakit malas mau blog (roughly translated as: "too lazy to blog") :P

So, yeah.. will be posting some other time. *hee*

Special Announcement

When I say nothing at all..

Waiting for my face mask to dry as I type this..so I can turn into a beautiful princess... ha ha

Since I don't have anything to post tonight (blank suda ni... sleepy), I'll post an image that I made this morning.

Good night everyone. Will let you know if I look like a princess after the mask. :P

Latest pink indulgence

A girl can never have enough of pink, right?

Riiiiiiiiiight.

KK Panas Gila!

Sometimes, I cannot adapt to changes..

An aunt of mine who's married to a Chinese once told me that the bed shouldn't be placed facing directly to either the door or a window. Another Chinese man (the guy from the apartment's management office) then told Bunny last weekend that according to their (the Chinese, I assume) belief, it is not advisable to place the bed facing a door or the window.

Then last night, I moved the bed to face the wall instead of the window. I don't know why it took me THIS long to move it.. but oh well, at least I finally moved it! And you know what? I couldn't sleep! I went to bed around 11:00PM and was awake around 3 in the morning. No matter how hard I tried to get back to sleep (even tried the tip that I read somewhere in Fay's blog about how to get to sleep) .. still, I couldn't! What's worse was that somewhere along the line... I end up reminiscing the old days back when my family and I was a resident of Kunak. I remember all the things I did, both good and bad, growing up as a teen.. being slightly rebellious and all that. And then I remembered about that one time when I had a fight with my dad...

So there I was, lying on the bed, sobbing and crying as silent as I could, guilt-ridden, feeling bad for myself and wishing that I could just get on the phone and talked to someone. Of course, I did apologized to my dad back then... but for some reason, it hurts so much just to think about it last night.

And at one point, I actually imagined myself being that woman in the 'Eat, Pray, Love' book.. where she had a moment when she cried in the bathroom, confused and wanting to escape from it all. Except that I dare not cry in my bathroom in the middle of the night, alone... nanti ada 'lain' yang datang tinguk. Ha ha ha!

So.... yeah... I wish that I still have someone who I can talk to, no matter what time it is. I used to have someone, but now.. *sigh*. I don't even wanna talk about it anymore.

I'll blame it on the bed position move!