Merry Christmas!

OMG OMG OMG finally get to blog today!!! Yahooo!!!! I've been wanting to blog since the day I arrived back home, but thanks to stupid Telekom people in Kunak who couldn't be bothered to fix our phone line (despite numerous calls, complaints and reports made to them for the past 2 months) .. I had to put my blogging activity to a halt. But all thanks to my friend, Nizam, who left his Celcom 3G stuff over here, I could "tumpang" and blog! But .. OMG lah, the connection is pathetically SLOW!!! It gets disconnected every now and then.. I can't even upload photos to show you. :-(

Worse part is: I can't even do any paid posting...

I am still back in Kunak at the moment. It's raining currently ..and brrrrr.... it's soooooo cold! My family and I went to Tawau earlier today to get some salted fish and dried prawns. We also went for some seafood later. Loads of them! Like 6 huge plates of dishes (not including rice) for 5 person. Gawd, I've been doing nothing much these days but eat, eat, eat and eat. I am geting fatter!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, I gotta stop now. I need to take my shower. It's almost 2 AM and I'm really, really tired already. Need to get up early tomorrow to fetch my sis to the airport. She's going back to her college tomorow.. :-( I'll try to blog again if stupid Kunak Telekom finally fix our phone line. I think Nizam's taking back his Celcom 3G tomorrow... no more Internet. *sob*

Oh by the way, for some reason, I can't access to my other blogs: Foreign Beauty and Once Upon A Time.. that explains why I'm blogging over here. Heheh.

Until then, take care everyone.

Merry Christmas!!!!! :D

:-(

I wanna cry. God, I wanna cry. I've been so emotional since a few days ago. While other people would be jumping in joy to go back to their families on Christmas.. I am having mixed feelings about it. Oh don't get me wrong. I am HAPPY to meet my parents. I am HAPPY that I could finally meet them after almost 2 years of not being back home. But the only thing that's taking me back is the thought of leaving what I have back here in KL.

My bedroom. My close friend. My shopping trip. My new life.

It's not easy adapting to new places, new bedroom, new life.. you know. And I have this tendency of getting too attached to something, like the bedroom for instance. Once I've grown attached to it, it's really hard for me to let go. You must be thinking that I'm crazy for having this kind of thought, yes? But that's the truth.

And since nobody reads this blog (ok, maybe just a few readers) I'm comfortable to say what I really feel inside: I am lonely. Going back home means I have my parents and my siblings.. and my church friends around me. But I do not have REAL friends to celebrate Christmas with. In fact, I do not have any close friend that I could go out with on Christmas day, let's not even mention New Year.. As a child, we move around quite a lot of times. Moving from one school to another. And I am not the kind of person who makes friends easily, because I am very picky when it comes to making friends. Besides... it's not that easy to find someone who can really understand you, go along with your temper and your unpredictable mood swings. I know. I admit that. I have a terrible temper sometimes. Even my parents knew about it.

Shit. I need to stop typing. The more I talk, the more emo I get. Maybe I should just get married and have someone to come home to.

BUT

Am I even ready to start a new family? Am I ready to share my life with a man? Can I decorate our house according to my taste and have as many plants and pets as I want? (I know, I could be very greedy sometimes..) Can my "husband" accept the fact that I do not cook as often as other wives would? Can he accept that I do not want to do all the house chores alone? God.. I can't even bear the thought of washing all the clothes everyday!

*sob*

Okayyy.. I think I'm going crazy already. I should just watch some tv serie and wait till it's time to go to the airport. I might even delete this entry later. I don't know. And since this blog was setup for my future children and grand children to read, I'd like to tell them something.

"I am a very confused person. Please do not grow up to be one like me. And oh, I was the Bintang Kaamatan in Kunak once. Your mother/grandmother can sing!"

xD

Flat ass for christmas

Ahh.. finally done with my Christmas shopping. Gifts for my family, gifts for myself, new dress for me, new shoes for me, new haircolor for me.. and new boyfriend for me. KIDDING!!

I also managed to complete ALL my paid posting assignments. Ass also pain oledi from sitting too long. I have to finish it up before going back to Sabah this Wednesday, because I doubt I'll have time to blog over there. It will heavily depend on what we'll do back home. Probably food, food and more food. Die lah! I'm gonna grow even fatter!

Anyway, my brain is juiceless now. Squeezed dry. Cannot think anymore lah. I think I'll stop blogging for a while and spend some time on my KL bed. I'm gonna miss it terribly! (even right now, the thought of leaving it makes me wanna cry. *sob*)

I'm making a list and checking it twice.. and i suck

Just a few days more before I take that flight back home, yet here I am, still not done with my Christmas shopping! Panic mode is beginning to slip in. Damnit it's Friday already. If I don't shop today, I'll get stuck in between people's armpit tomorrow at the shopping mall. Weekends are definitely NOT a good idea to shop on holiday season like this here in KL.

By hook or by crook, I have to buy my new clothes and shoes TODAY. But damn.. I'm having my period and the fact that it's the first day (not forgetting the PAIN) and my mood is getting rotten by the hour is not helping at all.

Damnit! Sometimes I hate being a woman. MEN SHOULD GET PERIOD INSTEAD!

Mocha and Raspberry Trifle

This recipe is too good to ignore. I just had to post it for my future reference!

INGREDIENTS

For syrup
3 tablespoons water
2 tablespoons sugar
3 tablespoons Cognac or other brandy

For mocha pastry cream
2 cups whole milk
1 tablespoon instant espresso powder
1 vanilla bean, split lengthwise
6 large egg yolks
3/4 cup sugar
1/4 cup cornstarch
3 ounces bittersweet (not unsweetened) or semisweet chocolate, chopped
1 3/4 cups chilled whipping cream

For assembly
2 purchased 8-inch-diameter, 1- to 1 1/4-inch-thick round sponge cakes, each cut horizontally in half
3/4 cup raspberry preserves (about 10 ounces)
2 cups fresh or frozen raspberries (unthawed)
2 cups fresh raspberries
2 tablespoons red currant jelly, melted with 1 tablespoon water
1 1/2 teaspoons sugar
Red currant bunches or red grape clusters (optional)

PREPARATION

Make syrup:
Combine 3 tablespoons water and sugar in small saucepan. Bring to boil over medium-high heat, stirring until sugar dissolves. Remove from heat. Mix in Cognac. Cool.

Make mocha pastry cream:
Combine milk and espresso powder in heavy medium saucepan. Scrape in seeds from vanilla bean; add bean. Bring to simmer. Remove from heat. Discard bean. Using electric mixer, beat yolks and sugar in large bowl until very thick, about 3 minutes. Sift in cornstarch; beat to blend well. Gradually beat hot milk mixture into egg mixture. Return mixture to saucepan. Whisk over medium heat until mixture comes to boil, about 3 minutes. Remove from heat. Add chocolate. Whisk until chocolate melts and mixture is smooth. Transfer to medium bowl. Place plastic wrap directly onto surface of pastry cream. Refrigerate until cold, about 3 hours. (Can be made 2 days ahead. Cover syrup and store at room temperature. Keep pastry cream refrigerated.)

Whisk cold pastry cream until smooth. Using electric mixer, beat whipping cream in large bowl until medium-stiff peaks form. Transfer 1 1/2 cups whipped cream to another medium bowl; set aside to use as topping. Stir 1/3 of remaining whipped cream from large bowl into pastry cream to lighten. Fold remaining whipped cream from large bowl into pastry cream in 2 additions.

Assemble:
Place 1 cake layer in bottom of 8-inch-diameter, 3-quart trifle bowl. Brush 1/4 of syrup over cake. Spread 3 tablespoons raspberry preserves over cake. Spread 1 cup pastry cream over. Arrange 1/2 cup fresh or frozen raspberries atop pastry cream. Repeat layering 3 times with remaining cake layers, syrup, preserves, pastry cream and 1 1/2 cups fresh or frozen raspberries.

Spread reserved 1 1/2 cups whipped cream over trifle. Top whipped cream with 2 cups fresh raspberries. Lightly brush red currant jelly mixture over raspberries. Sprinkle with 1 1/2 teaspoons sugar. Garnish with red currant bunches or grape clusters, if desired. Cover and refrigerate at least 3 hours. (Can be prepared 8 hours ahead. Keep refrigerated.)

What I have been up to..

December 11th

8PM: Watched "Moonlight" series.
Slept halfway during the show.

December 12th

3AM: Accidentally woke up. Hungry.
Made myself some half boiled eggs.

5AM: Went back to bed.
Took me a few decades of the rosary and hymns till I could finally fall asleep.

9:45AM: Woke up.
Checked my email. Reply emails and text message.

11AM: Had a glass of milk shake and a slice of cheese.

Currently: Watching E! on Astro. :-P
I need to take my shower and change soon. I need a new hair cut!!!

Help Me Name My Teddy!!

Can you please name my Teddy?


Please go to my personal blog and choose a name from the poll.

Thank you!! :D

December Is HERE!

Hurray!!! My favorite month is here!!!!!

Welcome December!! I can't wait for Christmas to come!! Free presents and beautiful Christmas tree!!! :D :D :D

Here comes the weekend

Yay! Weekend is here! I can ditch my diet on weekends and eat all the food I like once again.

RICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

OMG I miss you so much, oh rice!! :-D

Stomachache

I'm having stomachache right now. I've no idea why. It could be the burger, it could be the carbohydrate. I've been dieting and cutting myself from carb for the past 1 week - I guess when I had rice this afternoon and burger this evening, my tummy didn't really like it; it upsets her. LOL!

Anyway, I can't go to sleep so I tried to kacau my brother on IM, since he's working late tonight. But it turned out he wasn't online. :-( So I decided to clean up some stuff on my desk. It's starting to get kinda messy already! And guess what I found inside the jewellery box?

My mini iPod. Hahahaha!


It's been a while since I last play with it! I think since I got it 2 years ago, I've only used the iPod like 3 or 4 times... maybe 6. I only use it during my flight back to KK or to KL. Hahaha! Look, even the charger still have that plastic cover on it!

I'm charging the iPod at this moment tho. There's a few songs to copy inside too. Looks like I'll be using it again soon: for my flight back to Sabah this December. I can't wait to go home! :-)

Bored

I don't know why, but lately.. I've grown tired of blogging. So many things happened, so many stories to tell, so many photos to show.. yet, the writing mood is not there. The moment I logged into the Net, I don't feel like writing anything on my blog to post at all. In fact, instead of logging into my Blog, I went to eBay and Amazon.com to shop!

Maybe I just need a break from blogging. Do something else. Learn something new. Then maybe, I'll get into the blogging mood once again. :-)

New pot and new membership

Got me a new pot yesterday :-P


You can read more about the pot at my other blog at Foreign Beauty.

I also bought a VIP membership online to watch TV series and shows. YAY! Now I can watch all the shows like The L Word, Grey's Anatomy, Heroes up-to-date without having to download it like a pirate anymore. YAY!!!!!

OK.. gotta take my shower now before I start watching Heroes. :-P

It's A Cruel World Afterall...

Every blog I go, people are posting photos of FOOD!!!

How the heck am I gonna stick to my diet like this????!!!!

*sob* *sob*

Flabuless Plan

Wow, I woke up pretty early today: like at 3PM! I went to bed at 8 this morning. Hmm.. that means I only had 7 hours of sleep. Which is fine. :-P

Anyway, my stomach felt like an air baloon. So bloated with air! I think it has something to do with the meal replacement I've been taking. Hehe.. yep. In an attempt to lose some weight, I've been replacing my dinner with these "meal replacement" stuff. You know, those diet drink that controls your calorie intake. No idea if it'll work, been only taking it for 2 nights.

Will let you know if it works.

In the meantime, I think I'll get back to my Yoga practice. It's been a while since I last did it. And oh, about the plan on going to gym.. I think I'll cancel it.. for the time being. At least wait till I've lose some weight maybe. HAHAHAHA!


Yoga Zone: Yoga for Weight Loss - here I come!
(lets see how long I'll stick with this yoga thingy...)

Ala-Malaysian Style

The guy who's supposed to be servicing my air-cond were supposed to be here an hour ago.

OK, well, at first, he told me he's coming in at 5pm, so I woke up extra early today to prepare myself and the room. (it was kinda messy)
And then he called to say he's coming at 7pm instead.

It's way past 8pm right now and still no sign of him at the door.

I HATE people like these. Can't they be more professional by sticking to the time they've promised? If I can do the same to my clients, why can't they?!

HATE THEM! HATE THEM! HATE THEM!

Update: He finally came at around 9:58PM. -_-"

Gym?

I'm thinking of going to the Nike Women shop tomorrow to shop for some gym outfit. I've decided that in my quest to lose some weight before Christmas, I should hit the gym.

Whether or not this plan's gonna happen, we'll see.. LOL!

Wish me luck! (in shopping that is)

uZapping..

While waiting for my download to get over with, I'm surfing the Net and uZapping myself..


HOPEFULLY it works on getting rid of my stubborn fat tummy!! :-P

Yay Flowers!!

I think I love being sick now, because I get flowers! Hahahaha!

new host for forevertulip.com

I got a new, bigger host for my blog Foreign Beauty.

Hopefully this one won't have a lot of downtime like my previous one...

Foreign Beauty Down Again

Gah!!! This is the 2nd night in a row that my blog: Foreign Beauty is down. I'm so sick of that host! This is like the 3rd time for this week alone that my blog could not be accessed.

I'm thinking of moving to another host, the one that I'm using for my personal blog. At least that host have all the right stuff I wanted in order for my blog to run "properly" like the way I want it to be. Unlike the current host for Foreign Beauty... they couldn't be bothered to reply my email regarding my question on some script for my host.. >:(

Hmm...

The card reader on my Notebook is acting up again. Eeeee.. so irritating! And at the same time, I'm angry at myself too. This is like.. I dunno, maybe like the 6th time I told myself that I am going to buy an external card reader yet I still haven't! I think I should write it on my palm so I'll remember to buy one the next time I hit a computer shop. :-P

Anyway, had some chat with an old classmate of mine on IM the other day. We talked about our old friends, gossiped about our old classmates and made fun of each other's hairstyle during those days. LOL!

I also got him to scan an old photo of us, class of form 4 Science. See if you can find me. :-P
(which is TOO obvious, btw)


Oh my God! Our hairstyles back then. What was I thinking?? HAHAHAHAHA! A "mini fringe"?! HAHAHAHAHA!

I wish I could remember all their names in the photo. Wait till I get back to my parents' place. I think I've written down their names at the back of my copy back home.

Running out of time..

Gawd, it's October 25th already. Exactly 2 months before Christmas...and I am still FAT.

2 years of not being back in the town where my parents currently resides.

2 years of not showing myself to the townsfolks.

2 years of fat piling in my body.

I was a skinny, popular girl before I left that town!!!

Time to Yahoo! (I hardly use Google) "how to lose weight in 1 month".

Cough

Cough.

Cough.

Cough.

Cough.

I can't stop coughing!!!! >.<

Feeling Slightly Better

I'm feeling a bit better today.. still having running nose and slight fever tho. Cough is still there too.. but at least I'm out of the bed already. :-)


I also managed to vacuum my bedroom and mop the floor a bit. It's getting kinda messy already. I burned some fragrant candles too - but I hardly can smell anything with this blocked nose!

Oh by the way, my blog Foreign Beauty was featured as Blog of The Day in PPP today. Hahahaha! I didn't know it until I logged to my blog this afternoon and I saw messages left by Nessa & Ann on my comment box. A few kind people left some messages congratulating me on my Shoutbox too! LOL! Such sweet people in the world of blogging... who knew you can make "friends" through blogging, ey? :-)


Anyway, I gotta stop here. I need to change a new tissue to shove up my nose. The ones I currently have are already "overflowing" with "stuff". Hahaha!

Sick..

I'm down with flu, cough & fever.

Oh.. this is gonna suck. :-(

I Was At The Kitchen..

Yep, I went to the kitchen again last night to bake me some simple cupcakes (because I was hungry and I needed something to munch on while watching a marathon of Brothers & Sisters.


I'm so proud of myself. That was my very first simple and lazy cupcakes! LOL!

Not So Well

Gawd, I hate being a woman!

OK, not all the time but during THIS time of the month. I was trying to enjoy my dinner when I had this sudden pain in my stomach. I thought it was another gastric attack (as usual) until I reached home when I saw this "stain" on my panty. Grrrrr!!!! I don't know why but I am EXTREMELY irritated and agitated when I saw that!

Gosh.. I hate having my period. It's so annoying!!!! Why do us women had to endure all this?! And worse, why do I have to endure SO MUCH PAIN whenever I'm having it?

:-(

Pink October Blogger Theme Ver.2

Version 2 of my previous Pink October theme. Added a background (customizable background) and changed the header a bit.

• 2 columns
• For Blogger/Blogspot user only
• Works on both IE and Firefox

The Pink October Ver.2 blogger theme can be downloaded from HERE.

;-)

Pink October Blogger Theme

Made a simple pink blogger theme today, in conjunction of the Pink October month.

• 2 columns
• For Blogger/Blogspot user only
• Works on both IE and Firefox

Included in the .zip file are images for the blog for you to upload to your own host. I no longer host images for my free blog theme because it's taking up space and bandwidth of my host.. :-(

Do let me know if you need help for the text on the header image. :-)

The Pink October blogger theme can be downloaded from HERE.

:-)

I Love My New Table Lamp!

Gosh, I just can't stop talking about my new table lamp! LOLOLOLOLOL!!! After browsing tons of beautiful pink lamps on eBay, I finally decided to buy one locally. So I got one from Lovely Lace.

Cheap only... RM129.90. Hehehhe.. 10% discounts too.

My travel companion, "Mr. Dodot" just had to be in the picture! :-P

Details of the lamp. It's lacy!! :D

Well ok, enough bragging. Time to go to bed. And oh, maybe I would spend some time turning on and off the lamp before going to bed. :-P

OMG I'm Gaining Weight!

I've been eating a lot this week. Not proper meals but sweet stuff. Like cupcakes. I think this week alone, I had like 6 cupcakes?! OHMYGAWD!!! I am SO gonna gain a lot of weight this month.

T__T

Can't help it. I love food so much, especially those sugary sweet ones.


And the worse part is, I haven't been exercising at all this whole week.. :-(

Anyway, I'm going to MidValley Megamall tonight. Probably gonna do some shopping (depends on how I can control myself).. but the best part is, walking is good. It burns the fat. Hahahaha!

I promise to do some exercise when I'm back from shopping. :P

Happy Raya!

To all my Muslim family, friends and readers.

October 11th

I used to love this date. I had always been looking forward for this day to come.. many years ago.

October 11th was his birthday...

:-(

Anyway, here's another illustration I made last night for a post in my review blog. The post is titled Is Your Blog Well-Behaved? Feel free to take a peek. :P

As for the illustration, I still need to practice more!

Breast Cancer Awareness Illustration

Another illustration I made for the Breast Cancer Awareness - wearing a pink pashmina. It's actually for a sponsored post I did in my review blog. I kinda like the drawing, but there's still a lot of flaunts..

I really, REALLY need to buy a pen tablet. So hard to draw with a mouse... *sob*

Family Illustration

An illustration I made for a friend's blog header.


Homemade & mouse drawn.
I really need a pen tablet soon..
the ones I currently own is back at home, miles away from me. :(

Bake With Jane

Did a little baking, and here's the result:


It was fun baking and decorating it, but no fun eating alone. :(

Another One Bites To Dust

My brother didn't quite like the design I made for him.. well, he didn't exactly said he "didn't like it". He said the design was WHOAA and cool - but it doesn't suit him. Because he said the design would make him look like a Guitar God - which he's not (according to him). (But I still think he's very talented with his guitar!!!)

Well... I can't force him to use the design, even tho I feel quite sad that he wouldn't be using it. I spent the whole night designing it yesterday.. :(

But then again, it's his blog. I can't make him use a design that he don't want. :P

Here's what the design looked like. Still in a rough design.


Guess I'll stop working on it now and start thinking of another design that will suit him best. :)

Huff Puff.. I Am Taebo'ing :P

At 4 in the morning, I did a round of Taebo in my bedroom. It was great! Hope I'll manage to lose some weight before Christmas. :P

And right after Taebo, here I am, seated at my desk again staring at the Notebook. I need to design a theme for my brother's latest blog. Can't tell you the link just yet, at least till I'm done with the design that is - or if he decides to announce about his new blog on his current blog.

Oh by the way, the jamu I'm drinking right now is extremely bitter. Yuck!

PS: I'm having a slight headache tho. Must be from jumping too much. Haha..

My Desktop

I got tagged by PapaJoneh and Laane on what my Desktop looked like.

Well, here's how my wallpaper looks like in my Notebook currently:



What do you think, sexy eh? :P

And now I'm supposed to Tag 5 other person - but I'm gonna skip that part. Unless you wanna show me your wallpaper, then by all means do it! :D

The Beginning Of A Beautiful Journey

This is yet, another new blog of mine. Despite having other paid and hosted blog, I decided to create a free hosted blog so I could blog freely here for as long as I want without having to worry about the account getting expired.

This means, in the event of my death, this blog will still remain and not expire. My future children (if I have any) and my family will be able to learn something about me and walk with me through the journey I've taken.

I pray that my journey will be a beautiful one..